Come Home To Me

I thought it would fade over time, the way my throat closes and a momentary panic washes over me. I thought it would get easier to hear about the most recent loss, that eventually an unexpected knock at the door wouldn’t freeze my heart. I hoped that somehow I would become one of those people to whom the death of […]

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Every One Is You

I see their faces, hear their names. I watch their families, heads held high, but eyes always filled with pain. I see them hand that flag and every time, just for a moment, I imagine myself standing there, reaching out my hands to take it. It’s my nightmare, the one that never goes away. It’s the thought that keeps me […]

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They Don’t See Him

He is finally home after working a 26-hour shift. He’s exhausted and should be in bed, but he’s on the couch across from me instead. “I’m not tired, sweetheart, I want to be with you.” 5 minutes later – he’s snoring mid-sentence. Today Mikey informed me that “when we all grow up Daddy’s going to be a hero.” But Daddy […]

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Tomorrow – Who Is Next?

I woke up this morning and saw his face everywhere. I kept hoping that it was just another rumor, and that someone had it wrong. I felt the ache wash over me, that pain in my heart that had only just begun to heal. I saw his face, his body dressed in that familiar blue, his eyes made serious for […]

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We Know Who You Are

The horrors you have seen, I can never take away. They are seared forever onto the heart so many people think you don’t have. The nightmares you have lived through have changed you, forever. The people you have saved, do they remember you? Your uniform is a blessing and a curse. Forgotten so often, your name remembered only to be […]

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I Want You Here

There’s so little time and so much to do. The babies keep us on our toes, there’s housework and maintenance and chores and bills. There are doctor appointments, social obligations, and all the random little things that seem to pop up at the most inconvenient times. And then just when it seems we might have that time together – the […]

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