He’s Just A Man

  Is he a symbol or a man? To you, he is a symbol of something more. He’s a faceless uniform that walks the streets. You see his blue, you see his gun and shield. You see his car on the side of the road, and instinctively check to make sure you’re not speeding. You point him out to your […]

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I Am The Wife

I am the wife that sits alone, wondering if I will hear his voice. I am the wife that packs up the kids and goes to parties, school events, family functions and holiday dinners – with or without him. I am the wife that will never skip that kiss goodbye – because if today is his last day, I want […]

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Will You Remember?

We lost another brother, the latest on a growing list in a year that’s just begun. But that’s “his job,” isn’t it? It’s “what he signed up for.” “He knew what he was getting into.” I suppose in a way he did. He knew that his life would be on the line, that his time would never be his own, […]

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Not Just a Job

There’s another side to police life. There’s a part you don’t see in the media. There’s something they don’t tell you when they hand your loved one the uniform to wear, and the gun to carry. They tell you it will be a difficult life, that there will be challenges, stress, and sometimes horror. You hear about the disappointment, the […]

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Every One Is You

I see their faces, hear their names. I watch their families, heads held high, but eyes always filled with pain. I see them hand that flag and every time, just for a moment, I imagine myself standing there, reaching out my hands to take it. It’s my nightmare, the one that never goes away. It’s the thought that keeps me […]

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They Don’t See Him

He is finally home after working a 26-hour shift. He’s exhausted and should be in bed, but he’s on the couch across from me instead. “I’m not tired, sweetheart, I want to be with you.” 5 minutes later – he’s snoring mid-sentence. Today Mikey informed me that “when we all grow up Daddy’s going to be a hero.” But Daddy […]

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Tomorrow – Who Is Next?

I woke up this morning and saw his face everywhere. I kept hoping that it was just another rumor, and that someone had it wrong. I felt the ache wash over me, that pain in my heart that had only just begun to heal. I saw his face, his body dressed in that familiar blue, his eyes made serious for […]

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We Know Who You Are

The horrors you have seen, I can never take away. They are seared forever onto the heart so many people think you don’t have. The nightmares you have lived through have changed you, forever. The people you have saved, do they remember you? Your uniform is a blessing and a curse. Forgotten so often, your name remembered only to be […]

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You Betrayed Them

I was driving to a Christmas party when my phone rang. I heard the words and my heart felt shattered. Every fear, every worry, every feeling of panic came rushing into my throat and I couldn’t stop it. I had to stop it. My babies were with me. I was about to meet new people and see old friends. It […]

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I Want You Here

There’s so little time and so much to do. The babies keep us on our toes, there’s housework and maintenance and chores and bills. There are doctor appointments, social obligations, and all the random little things that seem to pop up at the most inconvenient times. And then just when it seems we might have that time together – the […]

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