So… we had a baby!! That makes 4. And yes, they’re all ours! 😉
Cassandra Rose was born on March 25th, and after kicking my butt for 9+ months of pregnancy, she let me sleep through labor and the easiest delivery ever. Here are some photos… because you know you want them. 😉
Ahhh newborn cuteness. #thosearmrolls
It’s a constant source of amusement to me and Hubby how much everything has changed from 1 kid to 4. One thing, however, has stayed exactly the same. Each time we drive away from the hospital with a new baby, there’s that moment where we look at each other and we’re all, “Omg, we have a newborn in the back seat!” haha The thing is, going from 1 – 2 kids was the hardest. Since then, it’s really kind of the more, the merrier. (Except during flu and stomach bug season. That’s when more kids isn’t necessarily merrier. Like, not at all. hahaha)
My oldest, in kindergarten now, told me the other day that he’s an author, because in his class they each wrote and illustrated books. One thing led to another, and he asked me if I’m an author. Blogging has never quite made me feel like an author, but as he was talking to me about it, I realized that I’ve missed writing on here as regularly as I used to.
In the last several months, I mentioned on here and my personal Facebook many times that pregnancy was kicking my butt. Putting it that way makes it sound so lighthearted and mildly entertaining. In reality, this pregnancy was one of the most challenging periods of my life thus far, and not for any reason I’d anticipated. Morning sickness, fatigue, aches and pains… all of that I’ve known and expected. I didn’t expect the sadness, the depression, the intense anxiety that came over me. Each of my pregnancies was different, but I’ll take the non-stop first trimester morning sickness I had with Mikey or even the crazy lady mood swings I had with Lucas over how I felt in this last pregnancy.
For the first time in my life, I understood more personally why people hide some issues and share others. Somehow, it feels totally okay to share that my pregnant back is killing me, or that my legs are swollen, or that oh-em-gee I can’t see my feet anymore. It’s a lot harder to share that there were days I didn’t want to be in my body at all. That some days I was tired, physically and emotionally, by the time my feet hit the floor in the morning. That I wanted so badly for someone to just know what I needed, but I couldn’t find the words to say it for myself.
I was at a friend’s house one day, and while our kids played in the next room, I finally decided to speak to her. “Is this normal? I’ve never felt like this before in my life.”
“It is normal. And however you feel, it’s okay. Never be afraid to tell me. I understand.”
It was simple. Heartfelt. Sincere. She understood. And somehow, being told that it was okay to feel it, made it that much easier to get through it. (You know who you are. You’re wonderful and I love you!!)
That was way off from what I planned to write about tonight, but there it is. For a handful of you that know me in real life – you were right there with me for it, so it’s not news. But hey – thanks for loving the Anna we never knew existed. 😛 <3
Oddly enough, after such a miserable pregnancy, almost as soon as Cassandra was born, life has gone back to normal. Well, normal plus a new baby dolly around here! 😀 She is a little love, easy going and already sleeping long hours during the night. It melts my heart to see each of the older kids with her – each one so different, but loving her so much.
Did you think you were going to get through a blog post without some Hubby lovin’? Think again!! Ha! 😉 He took time off after the baby was born, and oh my goodness, to see that man in action. haha I still remember watching him changing newborn Mikey’s diaper, and how terrified he always of being left alone with the baby too long. Now he can whip off a diaper while holding the toddler while talking Star Wars to Mikey and watching Eloise’s latest dance moves. #multitasking Fatherhood has changed him in the most beautiful ways and every day I love him more. That is all. 😀
That was an all-over-the-place blog post, so if you’re still with me, high-fives to you!! You made it to the end! Hopefully I’ll be on here more often now… fingers crossed. For now – back to mothering. 😉
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